Monday 15 July 2013

mY gF...

Now for the ones who have started reading this post with the anxiety of finding a lesbian love story, I need to make a confession that it is just a story of love like friendship, no sex included....

We met in 11th standard, almost 10 yrs back. She studied commerce and me science. And in the
college we studied the departments were enemies of each other. We happened to meet in a lecture of our vocational subject that both of us had chosen. The class was conducted in common for both the departments. That day I was late for the class and so there was no place left. I just threw a glance all over and the place was jam packed. But something caught my attention, there was a cute girl sitting alone on the first bench of the third row. Felt relieved to have found a place, I adjusted myself beside her and she welcomed with a beautiful smile. Since then i have been a fan of her smile. The class had already begun and so we did not talk. The class ended and we left without any conversation.

Next day the same story happened and she was beside me again with that cute little smile. OHH God!!! I love it so much. That day we spoke to each other, exchanging names and some silly taunts over the teacher and also waved each other bye, before leaving. From next day onwards it was almost like we had made a pact of sitting together whether or not there was any place elsewhere. I was a sort of tomboy those days. Fighting with boys was a hobby. We both developed a really great bond in a very short span of time. We started hanging out together, we were almost seen everywhere together. I used to be there near her class, would drop her home, walk around lingering on weekends. my friends had started teasing me over her as they were very sure that I would date a Girl. We were almost dating each other with me bossing over her for everything, whom she will talk to, who will she make friends with and with whom will she stay away, the typical boyfriends type ;-) But she being true to our relationship listened to every single thing I said.

We shared some really wonderful moments of our life. She made a part of my memories evergreen. She gave me moments to cherish all my life. She always made me forget everything the whole world. She was the company i loved to be in. She played every role a person could play for me.
Because once upon a time, we were best friends. And, yes, there's been a lot of bad stuff in between. But none of that matters right now, okay? You need me, I'm there. Any time, any place, anywhere

Our jr.college days were fun until the day came when we both had to depart to study further. Those were not the days of active social media or even mobile phones. We were drifted apart, but only by distance. Until then we were almost addicted to each other. Living away was something we were not prepared for. And I too didnt tell her while going away as I was very upset about it. It had changed the route of my life. But then we had to accept it and move on. We communicated through letters and sometimes through phone calls. But something happened, the time and distance took over us and we grew away from each other. The time gap started to increase between our communications and fate played its foul play. We had almost turned into strangers. Time passed by and views about each other changed, we found no time for each other, got busy with new friends and had got over.

But then our bond was not that weak that could break off easily. We went through a hell lot of ups
and downs, ego issues, misunderstandings and everything that could destry any relationship. But our love was far more stronger to bear all the blows and still survive. I never had many friends but she had a lot of them. I always have stayed away from making friends with girls as i had survuved many knives in my back. But I never counted her in them. She had always been my love, my only girlfriend. We are back together now. Things have changed, we have changed, all grown up with the oldies attitude but our love is still young. It has sustained many bruises, silent tears, heartbreaks. The tree was left unwatered for a long time. The leaves have dried and fallen, the barks have become old, but it is till holding roots. It will take time to grow all over again. It was all my mistake for this condition to ever arrive. But now I have accepted my fault, and I am back to the tree attending, caring, loving, protecting it again. I dont know what I was running away from but I have realised what I have always wanted.

It is my responsibilty now to bloom back the tree and I am willing to do it. She has been one of those best things that have ever happened to me. I should have never hurt her. I cant ask her to forgive me, but I can atleast make sure to not do it again.

I love you babes, have always been, and will always do. I had just got off the track all this time. But you were always there waiting with all the patience and not holding any grudges against me. I just
love you a lot and dont want to lose you ever in my life. You have always been there and want you to stay here forever.Because once upon a time, we were best friends. And, yes, there's been a lot of bad stuff in between. But none of that matters right now, okay? You need me, I'm there. Any time, any place, anywhere Sometimes in life, you find a special friend. Someone who changes your life just by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop. Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is forever friendship. When you're down and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times and the confused times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on. Your forever friend hold your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay. And i am the luckiest to find such a friend in you. I feel happy and complete because I need not worry. I have a forever friend, and forever has no end.

Another month. Another year.
Another smile another tear.
Another winter and another summer too
But there can has never been and will never be another you. I love you...
I drew this for u long back but never had an opportunity to share it with you.

No measure of time with you will be long enough, but we'll start with forever. OK.......

10 comments:

  1. Wow that is a nice read indeed on such a great friendship..
    True Friendship never fails the test of time

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    1. Thanx a lot. And yeah friendship never dies...
      May u be blessed with real friends forever....

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    1. Where are you sweetheart... I need u and i am missing you... please message me on FB messenger... your GF

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  3. What a lovely relationship. She is lucky to have a friend like you who could confess her faults so openly.

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    1. I am lucky to have her, who accepted me the way I am with no regrets ever...

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  4. Lovely, Such a charming friendship.
    May god bless you both and ur relationship...

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Thanx a lot for dropping in..... Your words strengthen me......